Change, The good, The bad, & The Inevitable

Just like the seasons, or a city much like Charleston, life changes. It usually happens when you are least prepared, but none the less it happens. For me, in these past four months, I graduated college, started my first, "Big Girl Job", defied my parents and moved in with a boy, (whom I love) and was thrown headfirst into this thing called, "Adulthood."

With all of these huge transitions I had experienced every emotion I never even knew I had. After about my fifth mental breakdown, I gave up on trying to figure it all out at once, and decided to take it day by day. As much as I want to say that made all the difference, it didn't, but what I did realize was that I cannot control everything ,so at this point I just have to enjoy the ride.

That is when I noticed a difference, but then life changed again. I felt disconnected from my friends, I felt like I was always disappointing someone, and I was not enjoying this next phase of life. And I thought, "this is nuts." I have only been on my own for about .5 seconds and I am already losing it. So I did what any rational human would do, I decided to ignore all of my problems, took my frustration out on my roommate, (the boyfriend) and watched a bunch of Netflix.

I know that sounds ridiculous, and not "adult" but I did eventually figure some things out. The first thing I figured out was, it's time to make my own choices and be happy with them regardless of what other's think, because this is my life, and not theirs.(thank you dad for teaching me that) The second thing I learned was, there are so many good things happening, so I need to try and focus on those and just brace myself for when it get's rough, but it can always get better. Lastly, whether it is with your career or for school, do what you love and work. that. hustle. Put in all that you have and utilize every opportunity, take chances and give yourself time to learn and grow. In the end, life is going to happen, and it will suck at times, and it is honestly TERRIFYING, but sometimes its amazing and great moments make all the weird in-between moments worth it. So instead of fearing the inevitable thing we call change, embrace it, be vulnerable, grow as a person, and live the life you want, not the life other's want from you.

Thank you for reading,

xoxo, MC